Quarter 3 blog 3

In the latest section of reading, I have noticed the theme of how self image effects relationships emerge. It starts with the bumbling Kit Neville, who cannot seem to keep himself positive in the face of Paul’s easy conversations with Elinor on a bike trip. Kit, who struggles to move his large body up a gentle hill, envies Paul’s fitness and good looks, comparing his own body to Paul’s and drawing his own negative conclusions. As he puffs along, he thinks “What a clown I am...he was perpetually on the lookout for disparaging remarks even when they came from himself” (Barker 104). He also goes on to admit he is constantly “...putting himself into situations where he showed to poor advantage and then, instead of learning from his mistakes and avoiding those situations, doing it again and again and again” (104). This shows that Neville, when he is hard on himself, takes it an extreme that leads to a sour temper and a mind quick to jump to conclusions.

Elinor is another victim of this vain thinking, even though she tries to keep a though exterior, she also wonders why she can’t be like everyone else. When we first meet her, she is full of spunk and determination, trying to overcome the oppression of her mother by chopping off her hair and going to art school. In front of her watchful mother, though, she is reduced to a self-conscious and pouting schoolgirl, worrying about her outfit, thinking “-I’m happy as I am. –Are you? I don’t think you are...More to the point, what was she going to wear tonight? She had the one evening dress....”(Barker 117). This mature woman reduced to dressing up to impress her peers shows that her self image is horrible and ruins the confident image the other characters had seen her as.

Quarter 3 Blog 2

While reading Life Class, a theme that has caught my attention was jealousy. For example, the character Paul is caught feeling jealous of his new friend Kit, who can paint in a way that Paul could only dream of. When invited to Kit’s house, where he lives with his parents, Paul’s own envy swells. At the sight of Kit’s lavish house, his luxurious lifestyle, Paul’s anger reaches its peak “So this maturity of vision in a man whom he found distinctly childish in many respects bewildered him. Living at home, spoiled, self-pitying, moaning on because his mother doesn’t pay him enough attention-for God’s sake! The work and the man seemed to bear no relation to each other” (Barker 53). Here Paul’s own incompetence is rubbed in his face by a rival he doesn’t consider worthy. The blow to his pride is great, and so to retaliate, he contents himself with shallow insults and wallows in self pity. Later, Paul gets tangled up in the jealousy of an ex-husband who still loves his wife. Teresa, whom Paul has been dating for some time now, has an ex-husband, Halliday, who stalks her every move, and now that she is with Paul, is wildly jealous. Instead of stalking Teresa, Halliday takes a day to follow Paul around and confront him about his affair with Teresa “For a moment Halliday’s grin disappeared in a blaze of misery. Almost immediately, he was smirking again. Paul could have understood anger, but despite Halliday’s words what he saw in his face was not anger but a kind of jeering complicity. He seemed more like a pimp than an outraged husband” (Barker 80). Halliday’s refusal to let go of his relationship with Teresa, combined with his stalking behavior, leads the reader to feel that Halliday is merely jealous of Teresa’s new life.

Quarter 3 Blog 1

While reading Pat Barker’s Life Class, the reader is given a slew of first impressions. Most, however, are turned around immediately, like in the main character Paul, and in the character of Kit Neville. When we first meet Paul Tarrant, he is sitting in the back of life class at Slade, finished with his attempt to draw the naked woman standing on the dais. Not one of his best works, he storms out at the slightest criticism from his teacher. This gives the reader the initial impression that he is a short tempered, hot-headed person. Almost immediately, though, the reader is faced with a new side of this character as we witness him save a young prostitute, no more than fifteen, from a middle-age buyer, “He…felt a tweak of lust that hardly broke the surface of his consciousness before it was transmuted into anger. Who had done this to her? She was such a child” (Barker 9). His righteous anger on a total stranger’s behalf gives the reader the impression that Paul is really a good guy.
The switch in impressions happens with the character Kit Neville as well as Paul. When we first meet Neville he is sitting in a bar, conversing with some mutual friends. We are introduced to him through the eyes of Paul, who is also meeting him for the first time. Kit beings by talking about his rather unsavory behavior back at Slade that got him expelled “He didn’t like my work. I didn’t like it much either, so I can’t hold that against him. And…he disapproved of my relationship with one of the models. She got pregnant and I didn’t want to be fathered” (Barker 19). This rejection of responsibility by Neville sets up his character as an immature and unreliable man. Later in the story, Paul goes to see some of Neville’s paintings in a gallery. There, he is shocked by their maturity and level of skill which was far beyond his own “Did he like them? He didn’t know, but he saw at once that this was fully mature work streets ahead of anything he could produce” (Barker 43). Paintings as complex and established as the ones done my Neville are unexpected from such an immature man. This helps continue the development of the theme that first impressions are often wrong.

Quarter 3 Citation

My third quarter OR book is Life Class by Pat Barker. This is the citation so I don’t have to re-type it at the end of each blog: Barker, Pat. Life Class. New York, Random House Inc. 2007.

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In the third section of reading, we are introduced to Jesse, Beth’s long-time boyfriend. The mention of him seems to bring great interest to the world of Rachel’s friends, who “Initially think its just so cute, but within seconds realize with a shock that Beth has womanly longings” (109). This disbelief over Beth’s emotional capacity shows just how far society has pushed mentally retarded people away from the realm of “normality.” Rachel herself admits that fact that she doesn’t know much when it comes to Jesse and Beth. Later, after much pestering, Beth yields this information: “What I like about Jesse is He is SExey and has Sexey legs and he can ride all over on his bike and he is Smart. and a great kisser. and he is Fun. To look at. too. All the time OK now you have it” (117). This letter, though it is worded like a child’s, holds all of the emotion of a woman. Here is the proof that mentally retarded people are “normal,” it is here, in their emotions and desires. Jesse, too, gets this prejudiced crap, not only for his race, but for his status as a retarded person.

A person passing him on the street would most likely find it shocking that he is a black belt in karate. Jesse, who grew up in the slums of Georgia where hostility towards his African-American heritage was open, is used to the glaring eyes of the public. His story is retold countless times to Rachel’s flabbergasted friends, “He lost his vision in [his left eye] at thirteen, he once told me, when he was playing alone at an abandoned construction site and stepped on a pipe that swung up and slammed into his face. Although he had the wherewithal to stumble to a hospital…his sight was so damaged that he could do no more than sit, forlorn, beside the entrance” (110). This tale of hurt would seem outrageous for a “regular” human to endure, but the fact that it happened to Jesse is an entirely different thing. Most people put I his situation wouldn’t perform half as well as he did under the stress of pain and confusion, and few people could make it to the hospital like he did. Yet when passing him on the road, you would never think him capable of an act that great, or even the mastery to tae kwon do. When Rachel invites the couple out to lunch, she sees first-hand the glares of other patrons in the restaurant, observing “There’s so much separateness in this almost empty room that I can’t breathe” (116). Jesse, though, stops her from doing anything about it, by saying “People is gonna look all day, and they might say they don’t think it’s right, but it’s not really for them to judge. As long as you be nice to a person, looks don’t matter. You in this world, you gotta accept it. (116). He shows here wisdom and acceptance beyond his years, especially for one who has been through so much in his life. Here is a man who has been ridiculed, shoved around for something he cannot control, looking with perfect clarity at the cruelness of the world and accepting it, even with all of its faults.

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In the second section I am reading, the mood drastically changes. It goes from observant and grudging to a series of bitter flashbacks. Life with a mentally retarded sister is more than a teenage girl can handle. The little games they played as children are less and less appealing to the pubescent Rachel. As Beth, who desires only to play like they used to, tries to talk Rachel into games, she gets more and more distant “But mostly, Beth tries to spend time with me, and I say no. ‘No, I don’t want to watch Adam-12. I don’t want to sing to your dolls.’ She gets a hurt look. ‘Go call your own friends’” (Simon 102). This rebellion, though expected from teens, is the first true discontent Rachel shows towards her sister. Embarrassed by her childish ways, Rachel wants nothing more than to escape from the life in which she must be responsible for a retarded sister. Rachel hears that word, over and over again at school, kids calling themselves ‘retarded’ because they failed that test. Rachel knows that people like her sister with disabilities are frowned upon, mocked openly by society, and the shame of having a retarded sister is more than she can handle on the bus ride home from school. She hears the kids laughing, pointing at her sister who waits for her bus every day after school. Rachel remembers “As my bus pulls up to our house, there she is at the curb in semi-naked cowgirl glory, shooting off water double-handed, beaming up at my window. The bus erupts. I seize my books and bolt down the aisle, my head down. The laughter slams against my ears. I have never heard anything so loud. I have never felt such humiliation” (Simon 104). This humiliation, this ridicule, why is it aimed at mentally retarded people? The fact that Rachel and Beth a laughed at due to a condition out of their control is sickening. It is then that Rachel learns hatred, towards those kids, and towards a sister who brings naught but shame to her older sibling.
This growing hatred and embarrassment only grows when Rachel tells her mom about the bus incident. Rachel begs her mother to force Beth to stay inside so Rachel could go home in peace. Her mother refuses, saying “You shouldn’t be ashamed. They should be ashamed. I will not hide your sister from the world” (Simon 104-105). Rachel, furious and sobbing, bemoans her future, where she knows she will have to take care of Beth. She cries “Its not fair that, on top of being a teenager, which is bad enough as it is, I have this extra worry! It’s not fair that I know-and Laura and Max know-that we can never think of a future that doesn’t include Beth! It could happen to any one of you. When you’re older, save money for her, so when we’re gone you can take care of her. We don’t believe in the back room. She’ll be in plain sight, as one of the family. Never put her in an institution. Ever ever ever. Make room for her in your own house....I sob at the injustice of it all. I know it’s true, and I know mom’s right, But I hate it all so much that I decide I’ll walk home from school from now on”(Simon 105). To have such resentment against one’s own sister is the kind of thing that tears families apart. Rachel is clearly struggling to accept her sister, besieged by waves of fury and shame. She knows that she should love her sister, but when society is teaching her and every other child on the earth to hate Beth, what can she do? Rachel knows she should love Beth, treat her like a sister should, but Rachel also wants to lead a normal life, one where she can live carefree and happily without the weight of her sister on her shoulders.

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The book I am reading for OR this semester at school is called Riding the Bus with my Sister. This is the story of Beth, a mentally retarded woman, who rides the buses of her small Pennsylvania city every day. She is occasionally visited by her older sister, Rachel, a professor with a busy schedule and no life to call her own “My life, I told myself, bore little resemblance to the lives of other workers in corporate America…But who was I kidding? I was like most of my peers: hyperbusy, hypercritical, hyperventilating” (Simon 7). They are perfect opposites, despite the fact that they were born only 11 months apart “I struggle awake and into my clothes: black sweater, black leggings…She owns a wardrobe of blazingly bright colors and can leap out of bed before dawn” (Simon 3). During one of her infrequent visits, Beth asks Rachel to ride the buses with her for one year. Reluctantly, Rachel agrees, and takes a journey with her sister that changes her life forever.
On the matter of the bus riding, Rachel confesses “Some days its sheer oddness baffled me; other days I was disheartened by her choosing to master bus routes rather than doing something productive, like a job. I had long embraced eccentrics in novels and iconoclasts in the newspaper stories, yet I was too dismayed by Beth’s particular devotion to the busses to be willing to acquaint myself with her life” (Simon 11). She is clearly ashamed of her sister and ashamed of herself for feeling that way. For Rachel, Beth has always been an “oddity” who she cannot accept into her own organized life.

Simon, Rachel. Riding the Bus with my Sister. New York: Penguin Group, 2003.

OTW

In On the Waterfront, there are two extremes as to the answer to this question: what is the difference is between a traitor and a whistle blower? On one side, we have Ede; a pure girl who stands up for what she thinks is right and never questions her morals. She knows what is right and what is wrong, and has a large sense of justice when the rules are broken. Ede would be the first to report any injustice, hoping to change society for the better. She thinks that anyone who stands up for their ethics and tells to help society is a whistle blower. On the other side, we have the mob boss, who will stop at nothing to get what he wants, however he can. If the cost of his happiness is the life or happiness of another, he could care less. A selfish, evil man who keeps his secrets close. If you were to betray his trust and spill to the cops, then you’re as good as dead. Anyone who tattles on the mob gets the title of traitor and is punished like a traitor.
I take Ede’s stance on things. Take this example: I see one of my friends cheating on a test. Do I tell the teacher? Yes. The friend might be angry, as I have officially “tattled,” but I would feel justified in saying that I did it for her. If she just copied off of other’s tests, how would she learn? I would have just one regret in turning my own friend in, if she was doing something wrong and then called me a tattle tale. It would be the loss of a good friend.

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There are several characters in All My Sons that base their decisions on personal and family gain rather than for the good of society. Joe Keller is the most obvious example of this act of selfishness. He allows his partner, Herbert Deever, take the blame for selling damaged goods to the army, thus escaping jail himself. Later in the play, he justifies his actions with this argument: “They came with handcuffs into the shop Chris, what could I do? Chris…Chris, I did it for you, it was a chance and I took it for you” (70). He tries to excuse his desperate actions by telling his son, Chris, that if he had taken the blame, the business would have gone up in smoke and there would have been nothing left for Chris. Keller’s son replies with: “For me!-I was dying every day and you were killing my boys and you did it for me? …Is that as far as your mind can see, the business?”(70). These two characters, Chris and his father, Joe, are opposites when it comes to ethics. Joe is fine with committing unlawful or otherwise disreputable acts as long as it benefits his family. Chris, meanwhile, is a regular crusader, striving to tell the truth wherever he goes. The two ends of the spectrum collide in so close a family connection, allowing the reader to see the differences between father and son clearly.
I personally side with Chris on this argument. The damaged airplane parts cost many young fighters their lives, all so that Joe Keller could retain his family business. The price tag on my happiness does not exceed another person’s life, and I could never ship off broken parts to the army if I knew it could put other men and women in danger. In this situation, I believe it was not appropriate to put the needs of my family and self in front of society’s. The cost would be too high for my conscious to bear. If another, less extreme case of similar moral complications arose, I would defend my family rather than society. For example, if my family was starving, and to get them the food they needed I would have to steal money from some rich neighbor, than I would take my family’s needs into account instead of what society thought was right or wrong.

AC/DC vs. HSM

What would you say if i told you that america's favorite teenagers were beaten at their own game by a group of graying men? You'd say I'm crazy, right? Wrong. Only a few days after its release, AC/DC's "Black Ice" topped the charts, beating High School Musical in the amount of copies sold. They sold over 784,000 copies in the first week of sales, even after making their soundtrack only available through Walmart and their website. It is astounding to think that "Black Ice" won second place for the 2008 biggest album debut, considering the dwindling number of people who remember listening to AC/DC as they were growing up. Today's generation is so focused on rap, hip hop and alternative rock, rarely is there time to think about the classics. That is one of the reasons why this is such a shocking leap in music sales; the classics are coming back with a vengence. Now AC/DC is being compared to the Eagles and Journey, two bands know for their outrageous sucess and landmarks in history. So when you find yourself with the latest HSM song stuck in your head, stop, shake it out, and plug in some good, classic, AC/DC in honor of the #1 album in sales.

Assoiciated Press. "AC/DC's 'Black Ice' beats out 'High School Musical'" CNN.com october 30 2008. http://www.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/Music/10/30/acdc.cd.success.ap/index.html

The Journey of the Magi

"The Journey of the Magi" is an English poem written by T.S. Eliot. In this poem, Eliot describes the journey of the Magi as they seek out the Christ child in the manger. Though their heads say that it is a stupid quest, that all of the hardship it takes to get there is not worth it, something in their hearts urge them to continue on. Through many a town they pass, and can derive no information for the locals regarding the place where they were headed. Finally, not a moment too soon, they reach the manger, and witness the birth of Jesus. Though satisfied that it is indeed a holy child, there is something not right, as if it were not only a birth they saw, but a death. This was the death of their former attachment to physical belongings. Even after they return to their high castles, the Magi are no longer content with mere possessions, and would rather be without them if it would mean spiritual freedom. In this way the poem reminds me strongly of Siddhartha’s journey. He also sought out the answer to all of his questions, the Buddha, and from that meeting on could not be content to live the life he had before. He was not content to stay with those who clung blindly to their gods, and decided to start on a path to enlightenment that was eventually fulfilled.

T.S. Eliot. “The Journey of the Magi.” PoetSeers.com 10/9/08 http://www.poetseers.org/themes/nobel_prize_for_literature/t__s__eliot/library/the_journey_of_the_magi/

Is the concept of Kleos relevant for a contemporary society?

I believe that the concept of Kleos has changed and grown to become something more than what it was back in the days of Odysseus and Achilles. In ancient times the only way to be remembered as a hero is to prove yourself in battle, like Achilles the great warrior, whose accomplishments are still talked about today. Now, there are many different ways to be remembered in our society, so the drive to win the glory that only victory in battle can bring has lessened dramatically. One of the ways that Kleos has shrunk in our world today is the fact that now humans have found other, though not necessarily easier, ways to be remembered in our society. Instead of being remembered as a great war tactician, like Odysseus is, you can be thought of as a brilliant scientist or the greatest author of your generation or even as being the best teacher in the world.
For a dwindling few, however, the urge to excel, to become famous, to be remembered is still too great a lure to remain within the confines of the mundane. These are the people who go on to sign up for the Army, the Navy, or the Air Force. These are the people who risk their lives every day and are remembered not only for their fighting prowess, but for the fact that they died defending their country. That is how the concept of Kleos has adapted in our society to remain relevant through the ages.

#1: Ike

For this assignment, i chose to write about hurricane Ike and its vicims which i read about in a newspaper article. This hurricane hit at the tail end of the season, a last bang from mother nature. Her ferocious attack left naught but pain and debris in its wake. For me, seeing the reaction the us had to the disastor was a suprizing, yet delightful, experiance. Lots of property damage caused by high winds, flood water and fallen trees like that seen in the aftermath would have me disheartened and depressesed. It takes a lot of courage to start from scratch, and i admire those who can keep going when they are standing in the remains of their home. Slowly but surely, the people are recovering, though not without help. The feeling of community is strong as neighbor helps neighbor to re-build their lives. Local coffee shops serve both lattes and cotractor refferals, tree-removing services and a compassionate ear. In the aftermath, there is always a helping hand outstreched to ease the pain and comfort those who need solace. This is the beauty of man kind, this compassion that comes out of all of us in wake of disastor. i believe everyone should read this piece, because it is always good to be updated on current events, especially natural disators within our own country.

Hanna, Jason. "Ike-battered Texans find comfort, help over coffee." CNN.com. 18 sep. 2008 <http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/09/17/ike.recovery.starbucks/index.html>

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